两个我

很多人都不知道我有双重人格，我也一直隐瞒着所有人。这毕竟不是件光彩的事情。我怕万一这秘密被人发现，下次你要见我就要来 Tanjung Rambutan 了。那时候，我穿着白色的衣，白色的裤，双手被缚，坐在五脚基，空白的眼神望着远方，一边流着口水，一边傻笑着。然后，一个超肥的护士很粗鲁地灌我吃那些五颜六色的神经病药。过后，我就狂呕出药来。肥护士就开始轮到她发疯，拿起超粗的针筒，向我刺。最可怕的是我不知道这肥婆是真的护士还是另一个疯子，不！是肥疯子！！

幸好的是另一个我也赞成问我这想法，不然，我会和他/她同归于尽！！！

咦，我有胡扯到哪里去了？？？

哈！我何时发现自己有双重人格？？？

不知道是不是上帝和我开了一个玩笑？我那超吝啬的爸爸在我17岁生日那天送我一部 Window 95 手提电脑 。我当时很用力，很用力地敲了我爸的头一下。想不到，他会喊痛嘞！我还以为他喝超便宜椰花酒喝醉了，然后不是到从哪里，很顺手的，拿了一部不用钱买的手提电脑，就很随便地给了我。这证明了我爸没有醉，也证实他没神经病，还非常确定我没在做梦。因为我爸超清醒地，非常正常地凑了我一顿。

忽然之间，我发现我吝啬的爸爸一丁点儿也不吝啬。在我生日当晚，他连送我两份礼物。平时，他话也懒得和我说，因为他要省口水。那晚，他竟然会用力的打我！！！然后，狠狠地将电脑甩出去（还好，我接着。这又证明了我运动神经好！）。我超开心的！那难忘的一夜，就算我快要死了，我都会随便抓一个人，告诉他我爸是多么地爱我。

拿到一部电脑当然要好好利用它啊！可惜的是，我家没有电话，更不用说我要上网。我妈说，看不到对方说话很没真实感，索性不安电话。有什么事就等遇到对方才说。急事嘛，可以和邻居街电话。再不然，可以去打公共电话。我的妈和我爸一样，爱省钱。

我唯一能够做的是乖乖的用它来做功课，写日记和玩一些超闷的游戏。

平安无事地就这样过了一个礼拜，他/她就出现了！！！

count-downing my birthday

see? another cute and smart baby comes to this fancy world...

he likes to bath and enjoying being a nude model.

sometime, he also very emo.

beside him are his parents and friend (also neighbor), irene.

soon, his mum brang him a brother and a sister. they are so damn cute!!!

don't know from which year, he getting fatter, fatter and fatter.

when he was standard six, he got a nickname "watermelon" because of he was too "round".

when he was form 3, his face was liked a pig.... T.T

when he was form 5, he was the fattest among the classmates. sigh....

when he went to PLKN, he so determined to cut down his weight. of course, he met a bunch of good friends... ^^~

although they were wearing uniform, he was so stood out among the handsomes. what to do? hahaha

he was celebrating CNY when tuition.

first time, his friends celebrated his birthday with him. at that moment, he felt damn touched.

his form six gang. 6AS1

suddenly, he lost his mind and went to Genting to become a croupier. maybe this is his fate, he met a lot of kind-hearted friends. so, he never feel regret to become a croupier.

now, he is resigned already and enjoying jobless life. YEAH....

simply write

The first 18 days were training problem. I was chosen to be a roulette dealer. Frankly, I was no very happy when I know that I’m in the roulette group. Actually I want to be a baccarat dealer. However, it’s my fate, I have to accept it and it began my 18 days of hell.

Training is not very easy and not very tough, but everyone was so tension. People leave before the training end. Many friends’ sick included me. Many friends cried. Everyone was so tried. But all of these didn’t affect our determination to become a dealer in Casino de Genting. Everyone was working so hard. We encouraged each other and our bonds become stronger and stronger.

After the training, we started to work in the casino. At first, we were so scared. We all were afraid that we will make mistakes when dealing game. We scared we will do wrong payment, we scared we will forget the procedures, we scared we will forget to show clear hand and the list going on. However, after two weeks time, we become more confident and professional. We have no more fear to dealing the game.

The tests only begin here. The difficult PS, the trouble customers and the rude dealers started to test us. They keeping make our mood down. They show no mercy to us. They torture us every single day. Some of us cried because of the idiot PS’s attitude and behavior or the scolding from customers. Never mind, we never surrender to these stresses. We keep our fighting spirit on and never give up. Because of we know that we need RM1500 and there is no else more important than RM1500.

After two months, I resigned. I’m no more a croupier. I packed my begs and go back home. My body is giving warning to me. So, for my health, I choose go back home before the contract end.

HOME SWEET HOME

currently enjoying my life...

yes, i'm relaxing at my home sweet home. everyday helping my parents do some house chores. i really like nothing to worry life. But some how i'll miss my genitng friends, they the best!!!

yesterday just went to KL for the PC fair. it got nothing to see but laptop, because i want to buy a new laptop... met Win and Rey. go lepak with them.. hahaha

resigned again

guess what? i resigned again! this time, i break my record. i just do this job for 1 day only.

next day morning, i phoned my head and inform her that i don't want to do anymore.

now, i'm jobless again......

new job

frankly, this job is easy. this job is just sit on the chair and do the things i have to do.

BUT

i dunno anything related to account. i'm a science student. i study phy, chemis, math and pengajian am. SEE! don't have account! but the job i'm doing is in an accountant company. God! help me!!! should i quite??? again....

the salary is rm600. 1 day i have to work 8 hours excluded lunch time, on saturday i have to work 5 hours and sunday is off day.

dunno why... i don't to do this job but got a voice from deep inside my heart says to me. "boy, you cannot give up so easily. never try, never know. maybe later you can manage this job. at least, you do this job for a month. after the personal income tax month, the most busy period pass already, only you resign. this is my responsible boy."

should i follow it???

back from genting

since i resigned, i thought i can rest about half of a month. unfortunately, my mother get me a job in no time. tomorrow i will be an office boy in an accountancy. although the salary is very low if compares with the salary of a croupier, but at least i not needed facing customers can sit when working and most important i finally have a normal life.

frankly, i want to be a waiter. i want to feel the feeling of a waiter. my family are strongly disagree with my idea. their reason is my body is not very strong, easily get sick and they don't want to see me keep losing my weight. what can i do but follow their advise.

i also changed my phone already. from nokia 5300 to nokia N85. i know N85 is an old model, but it's very useful and the price is very cheap. i just bought it with RM980 only. the phone has all the functions i want and it is a slide phone!!! :-)

bye... that's all for today!

resigned

i'm resigned already. i'm not a croupier anymore. 31/3/2010 is my last day and today i'm at home resting. so, i'm in Mentakab now. who want to meet me just sms me, sure i'll come out.

i think is the time for me to explain why i'll resign so sudden.

frankly, i don't like this job. days to days, i sick of this life. just sleep and work only. life becomes so meaningless. i hate this feeling. my life shouldn't be like this. it should be more interesting and more colourful. i hate this black and white lifestyle.

besides, i still cannot use to the weather at genting. cold weather is not for me. i always get sick. sore throat, flu, muscle cramp, high fever and etc. i lost 2 kg already. my friends told me that my face is so pale. my hands and feet always feel cold. i think warm environment is more for me.

yes, sure i'll miss my friends there. although just know them for about 2 and 1/2 months, sincerely i treat them as my brother, especially Danny and Johnney. both of them are my roommates. i think when i'm free sure i will go Ipoh and pay them a visit. hope they won't feel boring without me. lol

besides friends, there is nothing else i miss in genting. that's the main reason i can take the resign decision so sudden.

ok, that's my answer. satisfy???