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kill me

Stress, man.... everytime i feel stress, i will stomachace and feel want to vomit. i cannot take it anymore. these days, i feel very exhausted. nobody know what my feeling. i also don't know how to descride.

KILL ME!!!

mentally disorder

today i acted very weird in class. i don't know people around me feel the weirdness of me or not, but i really very tension!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!
I CANNOT STAND FOR STPM ANYMORE!!!!
the stupid math damn a lot of homework, like endless.
because of math, i didn't study other subjects for a long time.
mid year is coming, my progression slow like a tortoise. can anyone save me from here??? please?

废柴

很久没有用华语来表达我的心情了。今天心血来潮想就上来这写些废话。请注意，以下都是废话！！！不想听我废的，你们该懂得如何做了吧？还不走的，请自我保重了。

MUET
废柴东西！
简直不是东西！
就是算是东西，也是烂到无法形容的东西！！！

PHYSICS
我不想动你，
也被逼去懂你。
也许我去动你，
也不是我想懂你，
而是考试要到了。

CHEMISTRY
要不是我爱你，
要不是你特别，
我早就放弃你！！！
你这尤物栽在S手里，也算你倒霉了。
别担心，我会救出你的！

PURE MATH 2
神奇宝贝和你有缘了！
你和我无缘了！
若我们有缘，你知道怎么做了吧？
和神奇宝贝分手，和个人交往啦！

PA
无话可说，
你就是这样，我也是这样。
大家都是这样。
我们就这样吧！

废完了！看不懂的人，去找人为你翻译。^0^

MUET

reading still ok

writing is sucks

listening is the best among the three

speaking, i'm waiting

only in this perimeter

ok, i copy the words from my one of the most respect teacher "what we discuss only in this perimeter". Guys, what i'm writing here, the maximum limit that i can tell you. further information? sorry...

everyone has his/her own privacy, me also. when you come in front of me discuss my blog content, my life, my people surrounding me, what i like to eat, why i will have this response, etc etc, i will feel damn antipathy. sure, you can discuss with me, but only in this perimeter. you can drop some comments in comment box or chat box. discuss by face to face, sms and msn, sorry, i cannot accept it. i will feel like you too passion of my life and will stalking me any minutes. your action will make me feel very uncomfortable.

of course, my blog is open to anyone. but i only welcome some. i mean people i dislike or people who not my friend, i personal strongly discourage you all come here. firstly, you might get hurt after finish reading my blog. secondly, i don't like you and i don't welcome you. for the people who just pass by, i also very welcome you all but please be careful of the words you're using.

however, my blog is open and i cannot block anyone. but back to my previous blog, this world got many unwritten rules, you have to know the rule, my rules, and don't cross over!

@*%#$

sincerely, this world is very cruel. we cannot do anything to it but just be ourselves.

what i want to say is in this world got lots of unwritten rules. we cannot tell you, you have to feel it. the world is simple but simple makes complicated. you cannot blame someone why he/she is like this, why he/she cannot bla bla bla, why he/she treats me like this, etc etc

wake up, guys! is not other's faults. is you who being naive. everyone using their mind to talk to listen, using their mind to plan something evil. since you born in this game, you have to be in the game. we have to be clever. we have to know what we can do and what cannot. it's to safe yourself and protect people surrounding you.

you can say me i am a coward but this is the way i survive. i also got my rules. if someone over the line, be careful. i will not let you easy also. if you are my friend, you know me when i'm angry. i can be very liable and i can be very harsh!

mask i think is the most impotant thing in these days. if you don't have a mask, i advice you better go and make one ASAP. people are cheating each other, back-stab each other. in this second, he can be your brother; next seconds, you already died in his hands. is true, we have to treat people kindly and sincere, at the same time we have to be alert. human is human, they are not Saint. they can betray you anytime they want.

that's all for today... i think i will continue it when i got mood la...

by WK

OFF

today my birthday... lazy to write. so, ' i am.....' close for 1 day.

thank you lily, jason, ham, wai yee, lee chen, heng zai, wui(NS) and pei shan... only you all remember my actual birthday.... thanks for your wishes

BBQ part 2

first time i feel i really study in 6AS1, like living in another family.

first time i feel so close with each other, we are not classify into different group.

first time i see jason's dance, wai yee's acting and other brave performances LIVE!

first time i see how amazing 6AS1 student's appetite.

first time i celebrate birthday with friends.

This is not my first birthday, but it is my most memorable birthday.

Thanks...

there is nothing in this world can express my feeling now. thanks for the tiramisu cake and thanks for you all wishes. it was my first time celebrate birthday with my friends. before this, i didn't celebrate my birthday because it's just a normal day to me.

actually, i want to buy a cake to celebrate with you all. but later i think that is very embarrass so i give up my idea. i didn't know that Juan and Wai Yee will buy a cake for me. they told me that they nearly become workers of the shop since they bring not enough money. so touch, man. they want to hide the cake from me, but they failed. hahaha!

another things i want to mention is the birthday song. it was the marvellous song in the world. normally, the song is sing together but not for this time. they sing like coir. Juan started to sing and teck boon became the lead singer. too bad don't have background music.



the BBQ was nice too! got hot dogs, chicken balls, potato chips, chinken wings, ice-cream, ice lemon tea and cake. it was the first time i ate so full, i mean dinner. yes, i want to keep my weight, but cannot fight the foods. ah mo and sao keong are damn pro in BBQ. despite ice-cream, ice lemon tea and cake, they can finish 2 bags of hot dogs, 3 bags of chicken balls and 26 1/2 chickens wings in two hours!!! geng!

then, we played true or dare. actually, it only got dare. if you choose true, we also will force you choose dare. this was the most funny part of the BBQ. we can see kar jon ask the women who mentally got problem to give her a drink, juan ride bicyle with her scandal boyfriend, nai fook dancing with singing active 10, wai yee be the 'jiang xiao hua', jason's hot dance, cui yin said i love you to praman, sao keong's pole dance and me, mantis kong fu.

kar jon, juan, wai yee, ah mo, teck boon, sao keong, cui yin, praman, tze thurn, jason, pei ying, nai foo, fook ming, boon lip, kai shen and kai leek.

my birthday becomes very meaningful because of you all. thank you!!!!

Kyu??? Wan???

hey, don't ask me who i am now! i am who i am. if you are my friend, you should know.  after the interview out, some people will ask me: " now you're Wan or Kyu??"  this question makes me so uncomfortable. if i tell you who am i now, there will be no more fun. furthermore, a secret makes a man man. 

but i can tell you today, Kyu went to school. maybe his sixth senses, he wants to go school so much. then, as a result, today no school for before rest time. why? because of the stupid PPDa, i thought i can study at school. my time just wastes like that. i decided to hide myself and ask Kyu to come out. he refused. later, the police dog came. he so excited and push me aside. he also took a picture with one of the dog, Charlie. sigh!!! he so crazy when he see dog.

that's enough for today. tomorrow got 2 experiments, it will be a busy day.

erm... who want to go for BBQ on Friday night in Taman Sempalit playground? inform me or Juan please. erm.. need to pay RM10 per person to buy foods. only for 6AS1 students.

bye bye

Interview...

Kyu: hello everyone!!! surprise, is me again!!! this time i come here to interview my tauke. many people want to know more about him and they chasing me to try to get some clues from me. unfortunately, i also know nothing much about my tauke. this time, he giving me this golden chance to interview him. so, all my tauke fans should say thank you to Kyu, me!

Wan: wei wei, what you want to ask? quickly! i have something to do later.

Kyu: tauke wants go to watch cartoon gua... i also like Hunter X Hunter, wait for me wor.

Wan: you want ask or not??? (already stand up and prepare to leave).

Kyu: sorry, tauke. is my fault!!! wuwuwu... please don't leave...

Wan: ok, this month no salary for you! if you bullshitting again, next month also no salary!!! i'm serious~!

Kyu: first question comes from Cha Shao Li, in tauke's view, what will tauke do after 10 years?

Wan: Cha Shao Li? Kek shui name. ok, you know, i love chemistry. i think i will be a chemist if possible. now, i study hard in it. hope can get an A in my STPM. then, i can continue my journey. if i failed, i will study anything related with chemistry. chemistry is my life. chemistry equal to magic. it's so attractive!

Kyu: second question from Krisital, do tauke think about the consequences before tauke do something?

Wan: good question. actually i do think, but i think about it will success or not. i also will try to take care others feeling too. but you know, sometime we need to sacrifice somethings. i will not regret after i take my decision. about the consequences, i will take my responsible on it.

Kyu: Cha Shao Li asks tauke, what is college life means to tauke?

Wan: actually i don't want to enter form six, but i have no choice. i always think about college life is better than form six life. now, i change my thinking already. form six also not bad. at least, i still got lots of time to think my next steps. college life is free and new. it's a totally different life. i think if got chance, i also want to live a college life. try to do assignments, exam on holidays and enjoy holiday when school days.

Kyu: can tauke use 5 things to descried tauke?

Wan: this question like copy from net??? ok la, i try my best. erm.... winter, summer, tree, ocean and erm........ me.

Kyu: tauke not answering my question la. how can tauke descried tauke-self by using me.

Wan: Skin deep Kyu. i am who i am. i think nothing can use to put on me. NEXT!

Kyu: Hamburger wants to know why tauke love music so much?

Wan: yes, i damn love music. music bring me to life. it can calms me, makes me happy, makes me think the world still got hope. when i listening to music, i like living in my own free world. nothing in this world can compare with music, even movies.

Kyu: Hamburger and Cha Shao Li are so curious about tauke love life. can tauke talk something about it?

Wan: frankly, my love story still blank. i think i'm not eligible enough to in love in others. i think what can i only have is just friendship. further development will destroy what we having.

Kyu: i think that's all, tauke. thank you for your cooperation.

Wan: you are welcome.

Kyu: so, can i has my salary back???

Wan: Don't know...

Kyu: WUWUWUWUWU..... I want my salary back!!!!

BYE BYE.....

KYU VS WAN

 

                                               

today my 'tauke' feeling unwell. so, he send me to replace him just for one day. i think nobody recognise me, right? i'm Kyu. i am my 'tauke' servant.

recently, my tauke really stress. cannot eat right on time, cannot sleep on time and he always feeling tired. today he was vomited in school. i'm so worry about his health now. everyone says he becomes thin, everyone says he is smart enough. that's why he giving himself so much pressure to do not destroy his image in every one's heart. he just only wants to be an ordinary good boy. that's what he always so serious. if took a wrong step, there is no way to turn back.

somebody might says my tauke very boring. he also wants to be fun but just right now because mid-year and STPM are coming. his parents always say they didn't give stress on him. but tauke papa and tauke mama didn't realise they always remind tauke to study. whenever tauke is relaxing, online-ing or watching movies, tauke's parents will start to remind him to study. kesian taukeku.

frankly, tauke really don't like school. but everyday he go to school to get the knowledge, to beat down STPM. tauke told me he feels exhausted. when he see his friends didn't study hard in school, he tried to advise them, but they didn't take my tauke's advice? what to do? he also wonders what would their loving ones feel when watching what they doing in school?

today morning, before tauke go to school, tauke mama was had a fight with tauke. tauke mama always feels that her children not good enough, not discipline and always didn't listen to her. i know, as a parent sure has high demand to their children. actually her children are best enough, just have some little weakness. nobody is perfect, right? i think tauke mama has to always think about good sides of her children, then she will lives happier.

WAN yelling: "HEY, KYU!!! YOU TALK TOO MUCH ALREADY!!! SHUT UP! BACK TO YOUR ROOM NOW!!!!!!"

my god my tauke is angry liao... he sicks max. so bye bye lu...




p/s: haha... this is me! Kyu!!!

it is coming...

i feel it!

i feel its arrival!!!

it occupied each of my cells, attacking my brain and my body is corrupted.

41 days and 215 days become my nightmare.

homeworks like endless, revision never can finish.

midnight oil still has to continue.

GOD!!!!

Stress! leave me alone!!!

just i not used to it

sincerely, it already more than half year i study in SMKM.

and i still not used to it.

what i mean is the study enviroment.

i know i cannot blame anyone on this.

but when enviroment is not right, i'm hard to get mood to study.

Changed

Change...

somebody become better, somebody become worst.

for those who become better, congratulation.

for those who become worse, please wake up!!!

you have to love yourself, be yourself, accept yourself and throw all of your bad attitudes.

nobody can help you but YOU.

you are not a child already and you have a brain to think.

the world is not only you, you still have family and friends.

our hearts are bleeding when see your changes.

please don't deprave. please love yourself!!!

numb

I'm siting in my class.

i doing nothing again,

but just watching what others doing.

some is playing, some is chatting, some is studying.

what am i doing???

Heaven knows....

waiting

feeling empty... don't what to do....

is it anyone in the earth is thinking of me???

I'm sitting in front of computer,

waiting someone find me...

and i will keep waiting....

Kem Kepimpinan

early in the morning, i woke up on 7am. i was still thinking either go to the camp or not. actually, i don't want go this kind of camp because i got a tuition class. since heng zai begged and forced me to go there, so i decided to go.


the "kolej komuniti mentakab" just only 2km from my school, SMKM. i don't know why teacher wants us to gather at school and go there by bus??? is it better that we directly go to the college?

the college's environment is not bad. if it got open form six class, i think i will study at here. everywhere also has air-conditional, not like SMKM's building, old and hot. unfortunately, i didn't take the college surrounding's photos. sigh.


about the camp, in fact, it is not bad. it was not very fun and just ok. as a conclusion, nothing special. the Malays just concerned about food. they keep talking "belum makan, tak larat" bla bla. then about 9.50am we went to have tea break. we just finished ice breaking activity. i was shocked.

later, we continued on 10.30am. the lecturer began to start her lecture. it was quite simple. everything we also learnt already. frankly, it is quite useless for us. before we end up the camp, we had a game. i desried the game roughly. we fell form our spaceship and reached a new place. we had to plan how to make this land into the place suitable for human live.

my group picked up "star". i was the leader. we named our country "Star Kingdom" and the motto is "live in star is style". i think my group done a great job. we descried the how we make foods and drinks, transportation, finance, cloth and resident area. in my opinion, among the members, ah mo is the most scientific. he used a lot of theories into his transportation like momentum, Bernoulli's principle and etc.


after the presentation, i found that the Malays only will use what their place got and never think how to make their life better. maybe it is their "kampung" mindset. our group is different, we will invent new technology to help us, make a fashion week to colour our life. they just drink rain water, birds and very simple foods. i think they really have to wake up and realise the world is very big, they cannot just live in their little world.

then, we went back home. i skipped my tuition class today and learn nothing. what i did today is attended a not bad yet boring motivation camp. Sigh!!!!

P/S: but.... we still can syok sendiri! HA HA HA....!!!!

thank you cui yin

today, when we on the way to Temerloh to tuition chemistry, it was raining.,cat and dog rain. because it was raining, i have to drive slowly. if not, i sure can reach Pn. Lai there earlier.

since it was raining and my car didn't have umbrella, i drove the car exactly front of Pn.Lai's back door to let them out first. accidentally, we met Cui Yin was coming out with her umbrella. she is so kind-hearted. she quickly came to my passengers and took them into Pn.Lai's house. then, i kidding with her : "wah! you're so kind. after you take them inside, sure you come and bring me an umbrella lo??? ha ha ha!"

then, i went to parked my car. since the front of Pn.Lai's house was no parking already, i parked my car far a bit from Pn.Lai house. after i off car engine, fix my hair and bla bla bla, she was standing at beside the car door waiting for me. So touched, man!

you know, i'm a man. i not afraid to wet myself. i thought after i parked my car, i can run into Pn.Lai house. when Cui Yin bring me the umbrella, i was shocked. same time, i was touched by her.

i quickly said thank you to her. at first, she holded the umbrella for me. you know, i'm taller than her. she has to hold the umbrella higher to avoid me from the rain. then, i took over the umbrella. it is easier for both of us get off from rain. the other reason is i am a gentleman. ha ha ha....

as a conclusion, THANK YOU CUI YIN!!!

P/S Cui yin: na.... Give you a huge kiss and a diamond heart represent your kindness. dun thank you me wor..... ho ho ho ho.......