nervous

the SUKMA is coming nearer and nearer....
still got 3 more days, i will move to UKM and for the competition....

now, i'm the weakest in 8 men boat.
seriously, dunno wat's going on with me...
the more i training, i need more time to finish the distance, poorer result i got...

i cannot sleep well.

when i lying on the bed, my heart is pumping damn fast. sometimes, it's like no rhyme.

b4 i'm participate the competition, i was enjoyed rowing...
i like to pulling the machine. i feel excited when pulling the machine.
now, it's jst only fear and nervous in my heart....

whn i listen : "Wan Meng Hawl, strenght up! You are the slowest...."

stress coming like tsunami....

i cannot breath. i feel tat i'm wekaer.....

am i going to die????