birthday?

yesterday, my friend asked me about my birthday. my birthday is coming and how i want to celebrate it? i was like 'what???' is it too early to talk about my birthday?

when i was a kid, i love my birthday. receiving wishes, presents, and friends are all celebrate for me, it's really makes me feel that i am very important for them. for sure, i'm happy. but as i grown up, i'm change. i become not very exciting about my birthday. my birthday, it's a day in 365 days, nothing special... but i always be grateful that i'm still alive and be thankful to the God and my parents for bringing me to this fantasy world.

now, on my birthday, i always will call back home, say thank you to my mum and have some chit chat with her.  i am not a good boy when i was in secondary school. except i having a good grad in examination, i don't think that i am a very nice. i always hurting people's heart. now, i try to improve myself and make myself a better person. i hope that my family will be proud of me. i want them to feel relieve for having a kind, mature-thinking and responsible son. my family had did a lot of things for me. i do really appreciate it. i am a present for my parents and i want to be the best present that they even have. then, my birthday become more meaningful.

if you ask me what i want on my birthday, i just want people who surrounding me always happy and healthy. that's all...

i'm just a human, an ordinary man and i not really like to celebrate my birthday. the day i born to this world is the day my mum suffer the most. i always pray for her always in health and happy..

the end~

my life

my life is so good. i just had a test few days ago and i did it badly. then, i emo for a whole day. now, i feel damn good.

my life is so perfect. my family had some problems. i tried to solve it and i did it. now, i feel so relieve.

my life is so nice. it let me become stronger and not weaker. now, i face my problem independently.

however... i still alone in my world. my mum told me that when she was my age, she already marry. when can i get marry and have my children????

my 4th sem

lab lab lab
report report report
i wonder when can i study??? hahaha

部落格

当我用华语写部落格的时候，我的目的只有两个：

1）其它语言无法表达我的感受

2）我只想让懂华语的人读。

第四个学期了。刚刚结束了后备军为期两个星期的营，我就开学了。感觉上我都没休息过。没关系，这表示我没有虚度光阴。但才开学一个礼拜，周围的人就给了我一个挑战。很想不要去理他们，可是自己又过不了自己这关。只好藏在心里，默默地忍受。我不想给人看到我很脆弱。我不要想让我难堪的人看到我寝不安席的样子。人啊，总是要受到一些磨练才懂得成长。我需要在坚强一些。